I've been "retired" almost two weeks now. It still seems strange and just doesn't fit. I'm told it takes times to get into the slower routine. My mind is so used to thinking about things to do for school, to plan, to prepare, to........ It sure doesn't help to know that they still haven't found a replacement for me. It hasn't all fallen into place like I hoped it would. I question why.
My scripture for July 1st is Psalm 37:23, "If the Lord delights in a man's way, He makes his steps firm;"
I came across this prayer from Thomas Merton this morning:
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you and I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing.
And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road although I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death, I will not fear, for you are ever with me and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
I have this wonderful water fountain on my patio. It gives me such pleasure to listen to the soft trickle of the water. I'm listening for God's voice and direction in the quiet. For the last 31 years of my life, I've lived in the noise and laughter of school. It's time for the silence. I pray that God will delight in the way that He has chosen for me....that He will make my steps firm.